Thursday, 12 April 2012

Narcissist On The Verge Of A Nervous Breakdown

I got ask by a friend James Clayton to draw something for his tape release. He performs and writes music under the name of Crywank. I met him when I was in my first year of university, .I knew no one in Manchester then. The place were James lived 'Da Bunker' became a home for me as It did for many people. I loathed halls and its cellular existence. II praise the grim comfort of mong bed the desperate finiteness of pizza narnia. Thee place never really slept nor saw the light of the day. I gained a lot of firm friendships from been there and meeting the people passing through.

His second album to which these two drawings were made “Narcissist on the Verge of Mental Breakdown” covers some vast topics. Its much more intrinsic than his last album. For me in many ways better. Its not just his ability to write well crafted songs but his intellect too that really shines through on these recordings. His music is reminiscent of the evil twin of Charley Manson, accept from if he wasn't evil just plain rad.

He says about it ... “ Most of the songs are about coping with and de-constructing my sadness, some are about odd things that happened in my past, and others are just about people and scenes. They where mostly fuelled by stupid dark thoughts, and through song writing I’ve tried to get past them.”

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These two drawings were done with 0.05- 0.3 fine liners.The first was just an idea i didn't like.I just really like the compesition.The second drawing was the one i speant alot of time with.I'm happy with the detail thers dogs, demons,dicks, naked ladies naked men,mandallas swelling forms etc.I like how informed it appears to be whilst i have little knowledge of what has made up the content until looking back later.Like for instance i don't remember drawing a little seagull, i don't know why i would.Its there and there it will stay if no one else sees it, it won't matter.

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Saturday, 7 April 2012



This was drawn over the Vernal Equinox (wich signals the British spring time).This is an important time and is recognized by most religions.In the past and the present this time has been represented with the new life that comes with the change in seasons.Heirs,eggs, lambs and lets not forget the death and re-birth of Christ in Masoniac traditions.The celebration of passover in Judaism.In the pagan calender it is also a very prominent festivalThe Pagan goddess of spring and renewal is called Oestar, from the Scandinavian "Ostra"and the Teutonic "Ostern"or"Eastre" who were both Goddesses symbolizing spring and fertility. These goddesses were honoured on the vernal or spring equinox.The Phoenicians called her Astarte. The Assyrians and Babylonians called her Ishtar which is pronounced just as the Enlish word "Easter".
And in Europe she was known as Ostrara.

When looking at what may of motivated the shape of this drawing.I considered the moon.The vernal equinox also heralds in the changing of a new moon.Whilst cycling home one night.I think it was on the Friday that Uni was locked up, I looked up at the moon at this point it was at crecent.I was mulling over the idea as i looked at it.Possibly the reason why I was so anctious and not knowing whether I was coming or going, was possibly seasonal.Thinking that i could be subject to the same sturings that are aroused in nature in spring, i slept on it.The next day it was clear as I walked out in to Chorlton high street and also in town.The moon and the change in seasons have a profound effect on people.I noticed everyones behaviour was irratic, it was absolute murder cycling on the roads, cars just pulling out all over the place.

The new moon came on the 6th April and its as though there is a re-sumed calm to the world.

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